I haven’t been able to run since Columbus Day.  4 times in the last 11 days I have had severe bleeding episodes.  Tonight was the worst one so far.  I called my doctor and he suggested that if the bleeding didn’t stop soon, that I should consider going to the ER.  I asked him what they would do for me at the ER and he said that they would do a blood count and check for anemia.  I haven’t felt anemic lately, so I thought I would probably wait it out.

After I got off the phone, I did start to feel lightheaded.  I laid down for a while and did eventually feel stronger.   My doctor suggested that since this has been ongoing for so long that I should consider a D&C to clean it all out and be done with it.

I have been very resistant to the idea of a surgery because I don’t want the intrusion and the risk.  But this is getting out of hand.  It was so bad today, so much blood, that I had to rush home and didn’t quite make it home in time.  I can’t live like this, it is very stressful not knowing where I might be when the blood starts flowing.  It flows so fast and furious that no amount of protection can stop it.  I can never be really prepared.  It is a very stressful way to live.

I am a patient person, but this has been more than 7 weeks now since the first (now considered minor to me) bleeding episode.  7 weeks of keeping my guard up.     Two weeks since I’ve been able to run.

I think I’m done.   My doctor suggested a D&C a few weeks ago and now I’m seriously considering it.   I have to be in day long meetings for my job, and I cannot be worried about bleeding through my pants without warning.

But most of all, I really miss running.  I am supposed to run a half-marathon in two weeks.     If I don’t get this resolved, it could be many more weeks until it clears itself up.   I am conflicted though because I would love to let this all play out naturally.  But wow is it stressful not knowing when the crazy bleeding will occur.